Constant Involuntary Muscle Spasm!

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I implore and question any psychologist or psychiatrist , why do you believe “Talking Therapy” can help Functional Movement Disorder?

My leg has been in a constant involuntary muscle spasm for over five hours now!

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I am not sure how a person is supposed to stay positive when they live in constant pain.

With the many symptoms this disorder has, how can talking erase all the movements?

I am open to any discussion, please feel free to leave a comment.

All help will be gladly received.

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Functional Movement Disorder

 

   

  This disorder has such a diverse mix of symptoms, that it is incredibly hard to label it properly. 

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There are so many symptoms, so many names, how can it all be labelled under one Disorder?

I believe we should be treated for each individual symptom, and the clumped together disorder name label actually taken away! 

That way patients will get treated for each symptom, rather than some that are left with just a label over their head and doctors who have no clue how to treat them.

I honestly believe there are way too many symptoms, just to be all put under the same label of Functional Disorder!

Thanks as always for reading 🙂 

 

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What Is Functional Movement Disorder?


There in lies a very good question!

Functional Movement Disorder, makes a persons body stop functioning at a normal level. It can include many areas of the body movements, or only one area.

It is a very confusing and misunderstood condition, and also seems that it is not even widely known about in the medical profession.
My own initial GP Doctor, had to Google the condition to find out what it was I had been told was my diagnosis. My new GP Doctor does know what the condition is, but did make the big mistake of saying “It’s in the head”. This didn’t go down very well with me, but luckily I already have a good understanding of what this condition entails, the wheres and the whys.

I am quite sure that for a person of lesser knowledge, would immediately jump to the conclusion that it is a “Mental” condition, but don’t worry is isn’t. Although it is to do with the head, it is the brain not the mind that is broken.

In fact it is a break down of the Central Nervous System, which has at some point had a disconnection. Meaning the brain can no longer send or receive signals correctly to or from the body, for the persons movements.

This means that the person can have odd postures, involuntary muscle spasms, unexplained pains, non-epileptics attacks or seizures, and some patients may end up with some form of disability. It seems to mostly effect one side of the body, leaving the side weakened. It can effects some other areas in some patients, there are a few who have dual sided weakness.
There are many conditions that this disorder has, which will be more thoroughly explained in another page.


Welcome

Welcome to my site, I am a “Functional Movement Disorder” Sufferer.

I decided to set up this site to share any information and knowledge I have found, about this “very little known about” disorder.

*PLEASE NOTE THAT THIS SITE IS ALL MY OWN THOUGHTS AND INFORMATION FOUND, PUT TOGETHER TO HELP OTHERS IN THEIR SEARCH FOR ANSWERS THE SAME AS MYSELF.

This site will grow slowly, as I gather together all the information I have already found. Along with the new information I find in my continued research, which I will put on in time.
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Through researching for information on this disorder for myself, I found there to be very little out there to find.
I looked on the worldwide web, where there is information about what the movement conditions for this disorder are. Only I found nothing about the diagnosis process, or the following process of treatment and what is involved. What we as patients can expect to go through, and the walls that we constantly come up against.

The piles of forms and paperwork that we have to fill in, if we need to make claims from insurance companies, for DLA, for ESA, right through to applying for Blue Badges for disability parking, or concessionary passes etc.

The appointments we have to go through, and the sucession of follow up appointments. The different Doctors and Consultants we are required to see, and the tests we have to go through. Firstly to get to a diagnosis, then the following assessments for any claims we make. The refusals that you may have, and the following continued push to prove that your claim is your right. The ongoing battle against both your body fighting itself, and the battle to keep going through all the closed doors.
The total and utter resignation you may feel many a time, and the ongoing tiredness and fatigue.

I also trawled to a lot of bookshops, only to find that even the largest bookstores did not have any books on this condition. I even went to a main University bookstore, but to no avail.
I was also very surprised to find that it is not listed on the lists of Neurological Disorders on the Movement Disorder sites that I did find.

Interestingly, there seems to be a selection of names for the same disorder:

* Functional Movement Disorder
* Functional Neurological Disorder
* Functional Dissociative Disorder
* Functional Neurological Dissociative Disorder
* Functional Neurological Movement Disorder

All of the above diagnosis’ are in fact the same disorder, which can lead to confusion when left to look for information about the condition you have just been diagnosed with.

I hope that with shared knowledge, we can get this disorder more well-known about and so making the struggle for sufferers less, along with helping their families and carers to gain an understanding too.

Please feel free to get involved. You can comment, or you can contact me by email using the contact form.
Thank you.


Thinking

This Tuesday believe it or not, I actually went out and bought myself a “Self Confidence” book.
My disorder has made me so low lately, that I have lost all self esteem and confidence.

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The constant spasming of my body and my leg pains. The looks from strangers. Even when strangers are being nice, holding doors as lovely as it is (and very much needed and appreciated) it still makes me feel small, not a full functioning person anymore.
Well, that of course is because I am not!

There is a very good poem I came across in the book I would like to share with you, I hope it brings a smile to your face as it did mine 🙂

If you think you are beaten you are,
If you think you dare not, you don’t.
If you’d like to win but think you can’t,
It’s almost certain you won’t.

If you think you will lose, you’ve lost,
For out of the world you’ll find,
Success begins with a fellows will,
It’s all in the state of the mind.

If you think you’re outclassed you are,
You’ve got to think high to rise.
You’ve got to be sure of yourself,
Before you can ever win a prize.

Life’s battles don’t always go,
To the stronger or faster man.
But soon it late, the man who wins,
Is the man who thinks he can.

Walter D Wintle

Quite lovely isn’t it,and just makes you think and take stock of your life.

Enjoy x

FMD What’s the difference between the overlapping movement disorders? 


Functional Movement Disorder has many overlapping symptoms of other movement disorders, such as Dystonia, MS, Parkinson’s, Lyme Disease, Lupus, Chorea, and many, many other movement disorders. 

The difference being that whilst these others are an organic brain disorder, then some may possibly shorten life.
The functional movement disorder is not, it is classed as psychological or psychogenic as some name it, but it is not life shortening.

FMD sufferers have problems where the messages to and from the brain start getting mixed up, as they fire across the neurons and synapses in the brain. Due to the bodies Central Nervous System “wiring”, which is the signal sending and receiving lines. The Central Nervous System suddenly has a disconnection, and the persons body stops moving and functioning correctly. 

It is not totally understood why this happens, but this is the part spoken about when the “brain breaks!”.

The “brain break” happens when a person has gone through a traumatic event at some time in their past, but at that time their brain was not able to process all the upsetting information so hid it away in the back of the brain. 
Until a time where the person is back to a stable happy life, then the brain takes it upon itself to take out all these surpressed feelings to start and unravel and deal with them. 

Well the brain thinks you are happy again, so you can take it now yes? 
No! 
It’s at this point where in effect the “brain break” happens, making the brain stop working properly and misfiring its bodily commands. When it causes havoc with the central nervous system, sending the signals to and from the brain incorrectly.

We can have so much going on classed as functional, yet some sufferers may still have some actual real problems. 
Only we find that once we are labelled as functional, all the Doctors class every problem we have as “Functional”! It is incredibly upsetting, and can take many more years for sufferers to be listened to, and to get correct diagnosis’ for other problems.

I myself alongside my FMD have Dystonia Blepharospasm, Hemifacial Spasms and Cervical Dystonia. I just had my Botox injections last week, so am looking forward to a bit of relief in the coming days and weeks.

I also have a lot of back problems, where I’ve had many steroid facet joint injections, along with a steroid epidural back injection. These are painful, but none have worked for long, the steroid doesn’t seem to work for me. 

I hope this answers some questions, but I’m happy to answer any more, as the more answers the more people get to learn. 

Thank you 😊.

Functional Movement Disorder needs so much more awareness!

This morning I woke with a fully numb left arm, painful calf muscles, pain in the top front of my forehead, and a very heavy head which comes from the middle left side of my head which sometimes feels like it is being pulled downwards toward and through my neck down my back!

It all makes me so very tired, my body is constantly fighting itself and the tiredness is the body trying to repair itself and regenerate.

Does anyone else have the problems with their head like me?
My Drs still don’t know what it is, but think it relates to my seizures?

Last week I had a sleep study where I was filmed and all wired up, with six wires on my head, three on my forehead, two each side of my face, one on my chin, then a wire down my leg.
Lastly I had a strap put around my chest, this was to get readings of my chest rate and breathing.

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My sleep study is primarily to check for Sleep Apnoea, but also to check electrical impulses in my head and spasms in my body.

There are other things too, but I’m waiting to hear from the Consultants as I don’t want to get my hopes up.

This disorder certainly is draining, and you never know from one day to the next what your body is going to throw at you. Functional movement disorder is a neurological disorder, has so many symptoms, and I have a lot of them.

Though I am still fighting to make sure I do not also have an organic part to my movements, that I don’t only have a psychological disorder. As I’ve had spasms for so many years, years before what is thought to have been the psychological reason to my illness.
I will still continue to research this very weird disorder, a disorder that is very similar to PTSD.

Functional Movement Disorder needs so much more awareness!

I Am Broken

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This is a blog post I just added at: www.dystoniasufferer.com
I don’t blog as often now, it’s just going back over old ground. I only blog now, when I really feel what I write is worth sharing.
I hope my words may resonate with others, and make you feel less alone. Andrea x
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As I lay with my arms outstretched, crouched at the side of the bed.

My head down and tears fully flowing, with me sobbing and not knowing how to stop.

I am a broken woman!

I still have flashbacks, I still relive moments from my past.

I want my girls to hold and hug close, and never let them go. He hurt us too much, way too much.

Shock, pain, hurtful late night calls. Constant notes through the door, hounding me to meet up. After what he did!? 

The suicide threats he made, and in front of our girls!!!! Him asking to be past a knife to slit his wrists.

My daughters turmoils, the total and utter disruption to their lives. 

The total break of my marriage of 21 years. 

The following mess and trying to hold on and keep going. All that followed, the house, a roof over our heads. Trying to put food in our stomachs, how I deprived myself to feed my daughter, 

Holding on to a job where I was being harrassed by my boss, all whilst going through my troubled home life.

The divorce proceedings I set in place, and stood my ground. Getting some self esteem back, finding me again. 

FMD and PTSD are really, one and the same. I go through similar things.

Times like this I can’t stop crying, I just want out.

But my saving grace, a wonderful man I met who whirled me off my feet. Gave be confidence and showed me how to love again, made me a person who could feel again after I had shut down.

Only I’m not a full person anymore, I’m missing  bits. I’m broken, my brain has memory problems mostly short term. 

But there are things that happened during my marriage break up, that I have no memory of.

Things that have happened whilst with my new partner, I have no memory of.

It’s the scariest thing, not knowing part of your life but others do.

It’s the scariest thing, having flash backs suddenly out of the blue. That interrupt and distort your day, change your feelings. Make you go so low, it’s a struggle to keep getting back up.

It’s the scariest thing, having your body suddenly turn against you. Start breaking down, not moving properly. Not moving how you ask it, or moving without you asking!

It’s the scariest thing, living in my world. Every day, for the rest of my life!

I am hurt, still. 

I am broken, always.

I don’t really know who I am anymore

I just had to blurt this and get it out. 

Real life is hard, nothing is all roses. Not in my world.  

But I love all my family dearly, my girls especially. They make me a proud Mum, they have moved on and are now living their lives.

My elder sister I have to thank for looking after me so well in the first weeks, with no thought to disrupting her own life and work. She stepped out and caught me as I fell, whilst cradling my girls too. Thank you sis with all my heart xxx

Me I still struggle, and probably always will. Becoming physically and I guess mentally disabled, from something that happened in your life, to change the way your brain works. Well, it’s still very hard to grasp. 

So yes, I have my break down days. Today just happens to be one of them, and I felt I needed to set it free.

Maybe now I can move on?

You only have to look at the tags to see all the problems, and disorders I live with. So only time will tell.

Thanks for reading as always, and take care X.

Personal Independence Payment (PIP)

Information for all disabled people who claim benefits, and the new upcoming change to our DLA and Mobility benefits system payments with effect from 8th April 2013.

When will it effect you?

Claiming PIP
https://www.gov.uk/pip-checker
This is the link to check on when you may be effected by the new Personal Independence Payment (PIP) and when you can expect to have to reclaim for this instead of the old Disability Living Allowance (DLA) which is all changing this April 2013.

Here is the information given on the Government Website of what the rates are to be –
https://www.gov.uk/pip/what-youll-get

What you’ll get
Personal Independence Payment (PIP) is paid every 4 weeks. It’s tax free and can be paid if you’re in or out of work.

It is made up of 2 components (parts). Whether you get 1 or both of these depends on how your condition affects you.

Daily living component
Daily living component Weekly rate
Standard £53.00
Enhanced £79.15

Mobility component
Mobility component Weekly rate
Standard £21.00
Enhanced £55.25

Welcome

Welcome to my site, I am a “Functional Movement Disorder” Sufferer.

I decided to set up this site to share any information and knowledge I have found, about this “very little known about” disorder.

*PLEASE NOTE THAT THIS SITE IS ALL MY OWN THOUGHTS AND INFORMATION I HAVE FOUND, PUT TOGETHER TO HELP OTHERS IN THEIR SEARCH FOR ANSWERS THE SAME AS MYSELF.

This site will grow slowly, as I gather together all the information I have already found. Along with the new information I find in my continued research, which I will put on in time.
___________________________________________________

Through researching for information on this disorder for myself, I found there to be very little out there to find.
I looked on the worldwide web, where there is information about what the movement conditions for this disorder are. Only I found nothing about the diagnosis process, or the following process of treatment and what is involved. What we as patients can expect to go through, and the walls that we constantly come up against.

The piles of forms and paperwork that we have to fill in, if we need to make claims from insurance companies, for DLA, for ESA, right through to applying for Blue Badges for disability parking, or concessionary passes etc.

The appointments we have to go through, and the sucession of follow up appointments. The different Doctors and Consultants we are required to see, and the tests we have to go through. Firstly to get to a diagnosis, then the following assessments for any claims we make. The refusals that you may have, and the following continued push to prove that your claim is your right. The ongoing battle against both your body fighting itself, and the battle to keep going through all the closed doors.
The total and utter resignation you may feel many a time, and the ongoing tiredness and fatigue.

I also trawled to a lot of bookshops, only to find that even the largest bookstores did not have any books on this condition. I even went to a main University bookstore, but to no avail.
I was also very surprised to find that it is not listed on the lists of Neurological Disorders on the Movement Disorder sites that I did find.

Interestingly, there seems to be a selection of names for the same disorder:

* Functional Movement Disorder
* Functional Neurological Disorder
* Functional Dissociative Disorder
* Dissociative Disorder
* Conversion Disorder
* Functional Neurological Dissociative Disorder
* Functional Neurological Movement Disorder
* Psychogenic Movement Disorder
* Functional (Psychogenic) Movement Disorder

All of the above diagnosis’ are in fact the same disorder, which can lead to confusion when left to look for information about the condition you have just been diagnosed with.

I hope that with shared knowledge, we can get this disorder more well-known about and so making the struggle for sufferers less, along with helping their families and carers to gain an understanding too.

Please feel free to get involved. You can comment, or you can contact me by email using the contact form.
Thank you.

My Story

I haven’t been at work since Monday 30th of January this year 2012. I had a sudden onset of head spasms, and other body spasms. I have gone downhill fast over the year. January my head spasms started. February my neck kept twisting and jerking sideways. March my legs started to go weak and wouldn’t …

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An Update On Me ;)

I can’t walk anymore without walking sticks, crutches, my wheeled walker or I also now have a mobility scooter. I have funny jerky movements, and can seem to have a tremor at times. My left leg jumps a lot, due to pulling in my abdomen, my hip or the calf muscle all spasming. My neck, …

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  1. Andrea

    Hi Julia yes it was the same one I was pointed to by my Neurology Consultant as well. It has a wealth of information all about the different symptoms and that come with this disorder.
    I have linked to it on the “Helpful Links” page 🙂
    Unfortunately what I find it doesn’t do is go further, to give the understanding. To fill out the picture and consequences this disorder brings with it. I wanted more, to know the why and how. To find reasons, and information more than just on a medical level from one Dr who has an interest in the disorder. In fact, I was and still am dumbfounded that so few Drs have an interest in the disorder or know so little about it.
    My website is the journey from a patients view point, the diagnosis and time, years it can take. Through to the eventual start of treatment, the forms of treatment, and hopefully the outcomes that patients can look to in the future.
    I have been rather ill lately so I know my site is limited, but as many sites they take time to build and I hope it will get there eventually. With more information of the treatment and psychological journey, along with other interesting information I find that I feel may be of interest to share.
    I hope you find the site of some use to yourself also.
    Thank you for your comment 🙂

  2. Julia

    Hey, have you had a look at neurosymptoms.org? It’s a website by a movement consultant neurologist and I found that very useful. My neurologist pointed me in the direction of it when he diagnosed me x

  3. Andrea

    Hi Nicola, I am so glad my site is helping you. Although I do need to just say, that I am like you a sufferer. Everything I put on this site is from my research and personal experience, I am not a medical person.
    I set this site up because there is little information for us to find, and I wanted to explain our disorder in as easy a way as I can. Without all the medical terms that can be hard to understand, and I want to help others like me.
    We as patients with this disorder, start to become specialists in it by going through it and all the information we find along our journey. We end up knowing more than our local doctors, but we are not doctors just sufferers that begin to know all about our disorder.
    I hope your appointment goes well, and that your day is a good one.
    Thanks for your lovely comment 😀

  4. Nicola

    Fab site Andrea! You site is so good I’m taking a print out to my Gp this week of all the symptoms. He’s very understanding but he’s learning about Fnd like I am. I look forward to hearing of any updates you have & I will definitely let you know if any treatment I have seems to help & of news I may find through my investigations into this mad, mad condition! 🙂 xx

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Image from Google pictures. I’ve been busy all week, trying to write about my weekend away in London over the Bank Holiday weekend at the end of May. I will get it finished eventually, or maybe break it down into parts to get it posted. As it is all about mobility issues I had, that …

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FMD What’s the difference between the overlapping movement disorders? 

Functional Movement Disorder has many overlapping symptoms of other movement disorders, such as Dystonia, MS, Parkinson’s, Lyme Disease, Lupus, Chorea, and many, many other movement disorders.  The difference being that whilst these others are an organic brain disorder, then some may possibly shorten life. The functional movement disorder is not, it is classed as psychological …

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